Health

I have gone back & forth on whether to share, but feel led to be open. God has been teaching me so much & I don’t really want to just keep it to myself! 🙂

Long story short, I am taking some much needed REST. I don’t know what exactly that looks like other than that I need to take a step back from most everything & rest as much as I can.

Even after having had Mono 20 years ago & having Fibromyalgia the past 6+ years, chronic pain issues, & being a low-energy person most of my life, I have NEVER experienced this level of exhaustion. I get so exhausted that it just makes me cry. I have no control over it. And if I push through & just keep pushing my body…it’s just not good – I get dizzy, lightheaded, can’t breathe, heart is racing. 🤷‍♀️ So, mandatory rest it is! Thankfully, it does feel better when I lie down.

It is the weirdest feeling… I lie down & try to sleep and my mind & heart race. It feels like I’ve drank a POT of coffee, so much adrenaline is rushing through my body. My mind is clear. (Can’t sleep, but fine). So I sit up. Whoa…. crash. I’m trudging through quicksand, slower & slower the longer I’m up. There’s not a part of my body that doesn’t hurt & I’m so weak, on & on…

I had some labs drawn yesterday, but won’t hear back until next week & I’ll post an update then.

In the meantime, I’m thankful that God has filled me with PEACE & JOY. I’m trying to use my time wisely – working on school with the kids & pouring into my marriage & my writing. Cuddling & reading & laughing & watching funny shows. Using what little energy I can muster on what is truly the most important. 🙂